I like the look on your face when you smile at me. I like the way you sympathise. I like the things you say when you’re nervous. I like the way you looked at me tonight. Uh-oh. But don’t make me laugh, don’t make me cry, ’cause I might fall for you, boy. Don’t make me laugh, don’t make me cry, ’cause I might fall for you, boy. Oh boy. You have taken me by surprise. This is not at all what I expected. I like the way you understand me. You hear my heart and I think my heart hears yours. You take me hand and the sun warms my face; you touch my skin and the darkness retreats; you hold me close and the world sings its song, you love my heart and I think my heart loves yours. ‘Cause you make me laugh, you make me cry, couldn’t help falling for you, boy. You make me laugh, you make me cry, couldn’t help falling for you, boy.’Cause you make me laugh, you make me cry, couldn’t help falling for you, boy. You make me laugh, you make me cry, couldn’t help falling for you, boy.
Wide as heaven, with kindness baptized. With your dark eyes and beautiful face and a mouth syrup sweet, you sit deep in my heart like a crying child with a hand full of love who punches the air. Now I know who you are. And tonight I imagined you lying here with me. Stay, stay, here with me as day break calls we crawl away together beneath the blankets before you disappear. I whisper your name in my sleep because that’s where we truly hear. The stars know who you are. So tonight I imagine again you lying here with me. Stay, stay, here with me in the silence that I meet. I still hear your voice, it echoes in the hollows of my heart. And i feel you, I feel you closer to me than ever before. Now I know who you are.
Blue skies on a cloudy day make me think that anything is possible, but things don’t always work out that way every time it rains, not every time it rains. We bruise so deep and build these walls to keep ourselves in one piece, but you’re still broken down in these cages that you keep your heart in. We’ve all been changed from what we were before, we build these pieces of our soul to find a new heart, and things don’t always work out the same way as before no matter how hard you try.
I spy with my little eye something beginning with you. I should tell you a few things about me before we start playing the fool. I scare myself sometimes. I can’t decide sometimes. I get confused sometimes. I only get it right sometimes… if that’s okay, if that’s okay, if that’s okay with you. I surprise myself sometimes. Could listen to my own advice sometimes. I pretend not to care sometimes, I need to hear the truth from you sometimes. I am who I am. I am who I am. I don’t care much for your subtlety, don’t go telling me how to be me. I play the fool sometimes. I get the giggles sometimes. Cry for no reason sometimes. I need some attention sometimes. I talk to myself sometimes. I lose my cool sometimes. I sleep in late sometimes. And I don’t make my bed sometimes. I surprise myself sometimes. Could listen to my own advice sometimes. I pretend not to care sometimes. I always tell the truth, well sometimes. I spy with my little eye something beginning with you. I’ve told you a few things about me, now don’t go play me the fool.
The pavements are empty and I am alone. The street lights have come on and I can see all the cracks in the sidewalk where people have fallen down and crowds have come and gone. The pavements are washed by the rain that falls down and all it remembers is gone but for now. The lights cannot show the dreams that we held, and you cannot see but for looking inside. And I won’t lie, I just want to go home to you. The last train has called on the station to home, the buzz of the city has faded to none. I recall the memory of all I’ve once known but all I remember is this silence now. And I won’t lie, I just want to go home to you. Without your smile I can’t seem to find my way, and without your hand to lead me into better days. Without your eyes I can’t seem to see anything but these broken dreams. Oh I just want to go home to you.
You make an entrance and I can’t help holding my breath. You’ve got your best suit on and you’re looking swell. Then you look at me and I feel like the prettiest girl in the whole damn room. You saunter across the room with that look upon your face, like nothing can hold you down until we’re face to face. I’m looking at you and you’re looking at me and we see eye to eye. I feel like the prettiest girl in the whole damn room. The smoke from my cigarette touches your face and I wish it was me, oh I wish it was me, oh can it be? I think that I could tell you anything and you won’t look at me any differently; isn’t that grand, oh isn’t that grand, isn’t that grand? I feel like the prettiest girl in the whole damn room. And then you look at me and you said in your best vocabulary: come on, baby, come on, baby, let’s dance, let’s dance. And I feel like the prettiest girl in the whole damn world.
I want to go on an aeroplane and fly high above this world. I want to see new things that I have never seen before. And I want to find a new person to be ‘cause I don’t know this one anymore. So I’ll fly on an aeroplane to some new place I haven’t been before. And maybe, just maybe, I’ll find a new space. Maybe, just maybe, I’ll find a new face to take the place of yours. I’m gonna go far away from here to a place that doesn’t know your name. I’ll find a life somewhere far from here that can be mine again. I know I can be just fine again somewhere far away from home. So I’ll fly on an aeroplane and hope my heart doesn’t follow me there. And maybe, just maybe, I’ll find a new space. Maybe, just maybe, I’ll find a new face to take the place of yours.
Nothing’s in this room, nothing is in here. Everyone’s enjoying themselves somewhere out there. But don’t worry about me, I’ll be fine, fine, fine. I’ll find something to do, to amuse myself with. I’ll bang my head against a wall for my amusement. This is fun, you should try it sometime. I’ll bang my head against a wall for my amusement, ’til all my feeling is gone and then I’ll enjoy myself. Got nothing to do, I’m just waiting here. Don’t know what’s coming but I’ll wait anyhow. I know someone will find me, alone in my corner of the world, but don’t tell me to move ‘cause I’m having a ball, this is such damn fun. I think I need a sedative, I think I might need a pill from you. I think that I could carry on. I think I might need some help from you.
Looking for the evidence of a life that I was living but all I can find is this void of empty spaces. If this heart could just stop bleeding, the pain might go away in time to breathe, in time to breathe. I’ve never asked for saving but this is a mark I cannot bear, I cannot bear. Tried to shut you out and pretend you were not there, but the honesty I’m living won’t allow me to forget. The emergency lights come on and the sirens sound their warning as the life I wasn’t living crashes loudly to the ground. Looking for a saviour to find me, but all the answers too far gone to make them out. I can’t turn off all the voices in my head is full of noises and I need to find myself in time to breathe, in time to breathe. I would never ask for saving but this is a mark I cannot bear, I cannot bear.
I took the long road home to find my own way home. I don’t miss you at all when everything is fine. My heart only cries when I have no one else to hear. But everyone has a broken heart, and every heart has broken a little before, but I believe that a broken heart will always find its way. I keep flipping pages as if I’ll find something worth saying in all the things I’ve said to you, but I have nothing more to say and I am so much more than this broken heart. And even though you seem to have forgotten me, I have found that I can find my own way home… so it’s true what they say.
I gave away my heart today so I can’t feel no more. I gave away my heart today so I won’t feel no more. I gave it to you, wrapped it tight, so I can’t feel no more. I gave it to you one last time so I won’t feel no more. I’ve turned the clock back in time so I won’t feel no more. Relived the moments loved with you that I won’t feel no more. I put my mask back on to wear so I can’t feel no more, and locked your photos all away so I won’t feel no more. You did not love me like you said anyway. I wiped the smile right off your face so I won’t feel no more. I cleared my head of all your grace so I won’t feel no more. And I forgot the things you said so I won’t feel no more. And I became someone else so I won’t feel no more. You did not love me like you said anyway.
I’m lying here in all this darkness pretending that I can see, it’s not that hard. Of all the things that I have lost along the way, I’ve missed my heart the most. So I’m getting up again to fight a new day. There’s just one thing that I regret: the time I wasted on you. Pretending that I’m okay, forgetting what I was before, and getting up again to fight a new day. I’ve come out fighting, I’ve come out stronger than before, and I won’t hold on to what has gone anymore ‘cause I’ve come out fighting, I’ve come out stronger than before, and I’ve come out wiser, I’ve come out fine.
The waiting room was overcast with its typical rain. All the beautiful faces that call for approval as summer drifts away. I scratched the surface in a foreign accent like a stranger in my own skin and I closed my eyes and walked away. I found pride three days from paradise and I got back on the road again. Perhaps some day I’ll go about my heart without breaking anything. So it is, so it is, we’re all waiting. I found myself appropriate, a master without an earned reward, so I thought of all that I could make with magic. Just need a break with sunny skies, never ever felt so cold, and I was happy just hearing from my heart. I played the waiting game and thought hard to find the right idea, astounded by how fast the days flew by. Tried to enjoy today ‘cause tomorrow will be different, but everyone dreams of another day. Doesn’t everyone dream of another day? Beside myself and over it, winging home to escape the heat, I was a fool gone crazy fighting jetlag from the ride. I thought that I had nothing left but I finally started learning, I was merely disconnected by your smile.
I was sitting on the sideline waiting to arrive, hoping some day I would find me and by magic come to life. I was standing in the sunshine waiting for better days as if all I’d ever wanted would come in on the next train. Take every chance you can possibly take, chase every dream you have ever believed in, treat every moment as if it’s the last. What are you waiting for? Just believe. Believe in me. This city is filled with faceless dreamers, all running to find their piece of ground. I had my dreams all packed up and ready, waiting for a miracle to come and find me here. Waiting for the script to tell me how to be; dreaming of a version somehow better than my own; staring into space as if we have the time to spare; trying to find the answer in someone else’s smile. There’s so many dreamers waiting for their piece of sky. There’s so many hopeless waiting for their wings to fly. There’s no better moment than right here and now to dream as big as you can dream and live your only life.
I’m onto you and all the games that you’re used to. You have no regard for what you do. Oh, I’m onto you and all the lies that you run around; your complete disregard for me but I am onto you. You’re not fooling anyone, you think your fake smiles can hide what you’ve done but you’re not fooling anyone. I’ve caught you out, my friend. I slowed you down and tried to stop you completely. I cannot pretend to approve of what you do. Oh, I’m onto you, you almost had me fooled. It was a close call but I have news for you. I’ve caught you out. I’ve caught you lying, and I’ve caught you flinching, and I’ve got you shaking in your fine leather boots, I’ve caught you out my friend.
You look different, have you changed your hair? Haven’t seen you in a long, long time. So what is news, and how’s your mother? What are you doing with yourself these days? Oh, why do I bother? There’s nothing new and awkward stare, never knew how to communicate with you. There’s nothing there, no spark or flame, you really have not changed much at all. So why do I bother? Oh, why do I bother to look you up and down? Well I am great, thanks for asking, never been so fine in my entire life before. I’m having a blast, never been better, and that’s all that I wanted you to know. That is why I bother. That is why I bother to look you up and down.
It’s too dark in here, can somebody hit the lights so I can see the road ahead of me? If there is hope in here, can somebody show me how to hold onto it with both hands? I can feel a change in me, I can feel the world still turning. Would you hold my hand? It’s not brave if you’re not scared at all. Got my head in the clouds and now I can’t get down. Just wanted to see what lay ahead of me. I thought I’d climbed too high to see the ground but I can see a million miles away. I can see the ocean from here, I can see the tides are changing. I think I’ll be okay now. I can feel a change in me, I can feel the world still turning. Would you hold my hand? I could get lost along the way, yeah. I could lose my heart along the way, yeah. I will get hurt along the way, yeah. Couldn’t call myself brave if I didn’t risk it all.
I was minding my own business when you walked in through the door and you took me by surprise and you left me wanting more. I kind of expected to meet somebody new but I didn’t think that someone would end up being you. Now there’s a spring in my step and a smile on my heart and I cannot control what I feel and what not. ‘Cause you drag me by the rope that you tied around my heart and I cannot escape it, but why would I want to, oh, why would I want to now? Now I’m filled with all this feeling, trying to figure my next move, not sure what to expect or how you’ll play this out. But I’m thinking all the time of that smile when we first met and I can’t help but wonder if it’s really what you meant. And I can’t wait to see you, you’ve captured too complete the attention of my heart which is skipping to your beat. You have my full attention, awaiting your next move. Tried my utmost not to show it, but I think I fell for you.
If I were to write a goodbye song, I’d say thank you for all that was. If I were to say I’m over you, it would be a lie. But I’d say I don’t need you. I’d say I’ll be okay. I’d say we had some good times, and I’ll bury all the memories of me and you. If I were to write a love song, every word would be of you. I would banish my heart to loneliness ‘cause I would only dream of you. If I were to write a happy song, it would be all about you and the things that we used to do and the smile you used to wear and the way you made me laugh every day. You are my goodbye song, you are my love song, you are my happy song.
I want you, you should know that by now. What must I do to get your attention? ‘Cause I’m tired of playing this game, I’m tired of losing out now, I’m tired of pretending that it’s all alright, I’m tired of going home alone. ‘Cause I’ve looked into your eyes and I’ve seen you catch mine but I can’t fight this battle without losing my mind. So what’s this pretending, what game are you playing, do I look like a fool to you? I want you, you should know that by now. What must I do, what must I do? The things that you say and the things that you do, the way that you hold me and the way you want to, tell me these stories but I need the truth so that I can move on, so that I can pretend that you never existed. No, you can’t be my friend. I need to get on with myself being me without you.
You wear responsibility like a mask to hide behind, chasing down entitlement like you’re running out of time. You change your mind to suit the needs of someone else’s life like a martyr who is out to prove that it was all a lie. But you’re not the only one struggling to find the answers. No, you’re not the only one who forgets to breathe sometimes. You’re not alone. You’ve taken on deception to convince yourself you hold no blame. You’ve found a thousand reasons why the world should owe you one. You’ve built a wall so high that you can barely glimpse the sky, and you’ve blamed all of this on someone else’s lie. But you’re not the only one going through a life that changes all the time. No, you’re not the only one challenged by the life you leave behind. No, you’re not the only one struggling to find the answers. No, you’re not the only one who forgets to breathe sometimes. You’re not alone.
I wrote you a letter and you folded it up; you put it in your shirt pocket, the one closest to your heart. I wonder if you ever read it, I wonder if you ever saw that I had something to say to you or if you threw it all away. It’s fine, it’s fine, it doesn’t matter anyway. It’s fine, it’s fine, I changed my mind anyway. I saw you the other day, I was just passing by. You had that look on your face, that serious kind of smile. I wondered if you had seen me, I wondered if you still care, but I chose to pass you by because you threw it all away. You should see me now, I’ve got a new story to tell, I wish you could see me now. I’m fine, I’m fine, it never mattered anyway. I’m fine, I’m fine, I changed my mind anyway.
All tracks published by Openfire Music / Peermusic SA
Lyrics reproduced with permission
© Shannon Hope